Love

So truth be told I have always told myself that I am never getting married, but right now at this point there is this voice in the back of my head that is tell me other wise it is crazy. I really don't see myself being with anyone cause the one that I really want to be with is already happily in a relationship with someone else.

Here is the question how can you stop loving someone that you have loved since the first time you laid eyes on them and someone that you have developed an awesome friendship with? Is there really any way to get over them seriously? After being friends with someone for seven years and being in love with them for mostly the whole seven years it just ain't that easy. My brain is saying to just leave him alone and so far so good, but my heart just can't stop thinking about him. They say that being a friend first and then a lover second always seems to make the best relationship and then when you add God to the whole picture it makes the perfect relationship as I say.

So what is love really? It's something you feel, is it having a butterfly feeling every time your around that person? Is is when that person knows just want to do to make you smile when you have had a bad night? Really what is it? Is the fact that the person just knows what to do to make everything better? Are is it knowing that with that person you will be the happiest person ever? Really love what is it? Love seems like it is something that can't be explained cause if it is all of them wrapped up in one then that means that I definitely in love. I so feel like he is the one for me but then again maybe not but I know that my heart will always belong to him no matter what. Love really what is it???

Where were you

Where were you when I needed  you the most? All I wanted was a person to call my father someone that was there to show me how a man was suppose to treat me. But you where not there for me. The thing that gets me the most is that you want me to have full respect for you but how can I respect you 100 percent when I barely even known you. All I really ever wanted was for you to be there for me and be a dad. But now I know that you were to busy to be the father I needed. I thank God that I had a wonderful Mother that was there for me she was my mom and my dad and I know that without her I wouldn't be the person that I am today. The funny thing is that now that I am older you want to try and be my father but now I feel as if I don't need one anymore I am who I am because of my mom, and you had nothing to do with it at all. Maybe that is why it is hard for me to trust a guy cause you made so many promises to me and now I am blah...don;t really have words to describe the pain that I feel. All I want is to find a man and be happy but I don't know if I ever will cause my past still kinda hunts me. I just wanted you to be a part of my life and show me that way a man should treat me but you never did. I just pray that one day God will help me to forgive you and that I will find the right man and be happy with him.

God is just that awesome!!

God is the source of my life and I know that with out him I would be nothing. It seems like when things start going good the devil does something that makes things so much worst. I won't even lie at times it is so hard to keep the faith and believe that God is working things out, especially when everything bad happens all at once. All you want to do it just through your hands up and just give up, but the thing that I realize is that I have come this far and I can't give up now just like that song by Mary Mary I just can't give up now. That is so true God did not bring us this far for us to give up, us as Christians gotta stand fast and be a witness to others and we got to let others see Christ through us. You never know who may be watching you or whose life you may touch you know. We should live everyday as it is our last day, and live for Christ. We should think like if He was to come back now would we be ready or not. I know that I am no where close to perfect but I know that God is working on in and I am thankful I pray that those that I do come across that they see God through me. I want to be that light I want people to come up to me and ask me why I am the way I am and tell me that they want some of what I have. I won't lie it is hard to get out and be a witness like I would but God knows that it is on my heart to, but it is not as easy at all. I just hope that when Christ comes I will be ready and that I get to hear him say "Well done my good and faithful servant". This is something that I pray for with all my heart cause I know I have made some wrong choice in my life as well as many others but I am just so grateful that my Father in Heaven is so forgiving and He sees all my faults and my needs, the best thing is that He  knows what is on my heart and He is always there for me when no one else is. I just hope and pray that all that read this continues to pray for me and pray for one another cause you never know who might be going through something, and the power of prayer changes everything and it is so strong. God Bless you all stay Blessed and Remember God He never Fails!!!

Reflecting on life

Life is not made to be easy. You have people that come in and out of your life for reason. I feel those that stay in your life for a minute or even for a life time are lucky people. Some of us have made many mistakes in our life, and some of learn from those mistakes while others don't. Some of choice to deal with life different then others, some choice to turn to alcohol, some to violence, some to suicide, and others to drugs. The thing I can tell you is the best result instead of turning to all those things why not turn to your creator your father in heaven. I know that there are some things in my past that I am not proud of but I am glad that I have a forgiving Father one that will never leave me nor forsake me. He is always there for me with open arms. I have made a lot of friends as well as a lot of enemies but I guess that is a part of life, and I have had a chance to be a part of a lot of peoples life as well, rather it was just for a moment or for a life time. Those that I was able to bless I am so thankful for them cause they mean the world to me, and I know that God has placed them in my heart for a reason and I am excited to see what it is. You should live life to the fullest cause tomorrow is not promised. The best idea I can give you is that if you choice to live life to the fullest don't do it alone, do it with the help of Christ give Him your life and live it for Him. He is all you really need cause when life throws you challenges and friends talk about you He will still be there every step of the way holding you and taken you through whatever you may be going through. Remember you can do all things through Christ and life is to short to hold grudges.

Life

Ain't life funny at times. You have your ups and downs it's what makes life interesting to be honest. Life is like a roller coaster but at times where it may seem like the roller coaster never comes down or it seems like it never goes up. All at the same time life is what you make of it.

The same I see it the roller coasters in our life is the test and trails that God is throwing at us in order to see how we handle them. Some of us handle them in the good way and others can't handle them at all. Life is full of surprises and interesting things. The things that you may go through in your life are there to make you stronger, but you have to know how to handle what life throws at you. The thing is that when life throws you theses things what will you do. Will you lean and depend on God and know that without a doubt he will see you through whatever you may be going through or will you just give up on life and let the devil take it over?

So you should leave each day as if it is your last, and depend on God like never before cause tomorrow is never promised to anyone. So remember that God is always there and he is just waiting for you to ask for his help and just depend on him with your whole heart. When you maybe going through your life test and trails and you do not think that God is there, just remember this he was there the whole time he was there carrying you through the storm.

 God Bless